Start Over.

Divorce. Finality. Finished. Done. Over. New page. I can't seem to wrap my mind around the finality of it all. A relationship that meant the world to me, over. A life we built a foundation on. Done. I started the divorce with the small thought in my head, "this won't go through, we'll find a…

I’m Sorry I Let You Down

https://youtu.be/0501BTnbrxg I try to remain a positive person. Positive thoughts; dwell on those Philippians words. However, I'm human. Sometimes, embracing humanity feels right, though wrong. Feel the feelings and let them go. Sometimes, I lower my shield to see the other side. Don't listen to it. Hear it. For a moment. "I wish I could…

So much better Your way

"You go before I knowThat You've even gone to win my warYou come back with the head of my enemyYou come back and You call it my victory, oh oohYou go before I knowThat You've even gone to win my warYour love becomes my greatest defenseIt leads me from the dry wildernessAnd all I did…

I do not wish you well

I do not wish you well. Yes you. With your double bachelor's degree in nursing and biochemical whatever degree. I found you when it first happened. I told you I was done with you, and I left in peace. To lean on God during your brokenhearted period. But you've come back to haunt me today.…

Who do you fight?

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Ephesians 6:12 NIV One of the main verses that gets me through is this one. In a situation where you're dealing…

Anxieties of Mom brain turned to Faith

February 1, 2019 "I gave myself a splitting headache after today. Honestly, if I do absolutely nothing, would God still provide? Like if I didn't look up anything [about my kid's school district], carried on with the 12 month lease I just signed...just let the cards fall...what would happen? I am so scared of [my…

Burning House

4.16.19 Notre Dame fire was heart breaking. A building that is older than the USA, in flames, falling apart. The fire fighters saying they might not be able to get the fire under control. That the, once beautiful building, may crumble. Wake up this morning to the fire extinguished and talk of promises to rebuild!…

Let it slip through my grasp

I remember pinning this image a few years ago and seeing it again made me quite nostalgic. Seeing, feeling, and addressing red flags in my relationship the past 4 years...each time I prayed something like this pin and God gave me peace to move on. Like a "it's not time yet" whisper. The past 6…

The Struggle vs The Victory

2-24-2019 Why do Christians feel shame when they feel negative emotions? When a mother has a miscarriage but feels her emptiness isn't christian enough to share? When a woman commits adultery but repents and moves on in secret? When a woman has to file for divorce because her husband won't be faithful? When a woman…

Part 2: Emotionally divorcing your soon to be ex husband

This is a continued post from Part 1. Read Part 1 before continuing 🙂 Don't fantasize the past or the future Another point she makes is to "take off the happy glasses". I was initially nostalgic and trying to blame myself for things in our marriage and make my husband's actions next-to blameless in my…